you know what..yes im incredibly pissed off

you know what why is it that as soon as something good or decent happens then everyone wants to say how much they were willing to help?? how is it that now that i have a car everyone suddenly wants to make remarks about how helpful they could have been?? what the hell..it just upsets me because for 4 months i struggled and tried everything possible to keep a car..i worked my butt off to keep a rental, my aunts and uncles knew i was struggling..and no one ..not one of them offered to help me or loan me there cars or anything..and today we are having dinner and they started asking about driving my car and i said no..that no one would be driving my car..and the response was to make fun of my refusal to let anyone drive my car..to tell me that i needed to remember that they would be the ones helping if anything happened and that they wanted to know where my heart was...well you know what..my heart is buried in some small freaking box in the middle of no where because i said no and meant it and it just pissed me off..how can they just sit there and say how much they would have helped and that i needed to remember that when things are hard..and that i wont always be in on top..wtf???!!! four months i waited for the car..and do you know who helped me in the end?? mommy..no one else..not one person stepped in for any freaking thing and now they want to say they could have helped..could haves arent getting me anywhere..could haves arent doing a damn thing for me..mommy is the one who with all her arguing and complaining helped me and loaned me her car and money when i needed it..yes i have to suffer the constant reminders about it but oh well you know..she helped...and she didnt stand up for me..she didnt mention how much it took for me to keep the rentals for so long..she didnt say anything and i end up being the bad one..the mean one for saying no that no one could drive my car..im so so so upset right now