worrying ... its breaking me

my worrying this week has magnified by about a billion...right now everything is worrying and scaring me ..and im freaking out..its just suddenly everything is in my head and all i can do is worry...im worried about everything, money, my job, my clients, my family, all of it is weighing on me..adn i try to stay calm but it doesnt help anymore..its tiring ..and i cant seem to get out of my mood this week..i have been down all week but as it gets closer to pay day and just not knowing what ill be able to pay..i am worried and scared and freaking out...and its christmas and im just i dont know...im feeling like a failure again..still..like i cant do anything at all right and its all my fault ...why do i have to be such a screw up ??  why does all of the work have to go down the  drain just because my fear gets the best of me ... i dont know..i just need to calm down..and breathe..and refocus ... try to refocus .. when all i want to do is hide and cry..im overwhelmed...and going downhill very quickly ..