Just Broken

Tonight I am feeling broken, lost, confused, hopeless.  I dont know.  Just completely disconnected from everything right now.  Im tired and not feeling well and just keep wondering why it is that I am the way I am.  Why is it that i dont remember?  Why dont I know who I am?  Normally I know it doesnt bother me.  I go through the day,  somehow I get through it, doing what i need to do, saying what i need to say.  But there is nothing there.  I am empty inside. I am broken. I dont understand. The disconnect is so huge that sometimes i wonder if i am even alive.  I see but dont feel. i live but dont engage. I walk, i talk, i laugh, i smile, but its nothing. it means nothing at all. it seems hopeless..this battle to stay alive. what is the point? what is it that i am supposed to be staying alive for?