a positive start ?? 2011...wow

Do not sell yourself short by promising to be a better person. You have always been amazing and recognition starts from within. ~ Dodinsky

I found this quote tonight on facebook and i just really like it..it speaks to me..and i feel that it is something that i need to really remember and take to heart..especially right now..with where i am at in my head..and just in life..i need to remember that i am enough, and that i am just me..and that i cant be any one else to make everyone else happy.  I have to be enough for me before trying to please everyone else.  i have to be able to live with my choices, and my decisions..my plans, my wants and needs..

i will accept myself this year.  i will accept my faults, my flaws, my struggles, my sadness, and my happiness ..i will not let others sway me, and i will stand up for myself and do things to make me happy. 

i want 2011 to be a good year and i know that i have to put forth the effort, the time, and have the strength to move forward..and keep growing and learning, and changing.  thats what life is about isnt it?  changing..growing..moving on..

i want this new year to be happier, i want to feel more at peace..calmer..saner..i want to be heard..and accepted..i want to be acknowledged..loved..wanted..needed..i want to cry, laugh, learn, grow..i want to move on..i want to be able to have a relationship..i want to accept that someone else can love and want me..

and like with every year i have been thinking about resolutions...and what i want for the new year..what my 'plan' is going to be..and its going to be a little different this year..my goals for the new year are 

-to be less wasteful with both money and food

-to make healthier choices when it comes to food

-to get finances under control

-to move..to my own place be it here in va or in another state

those are my goals..the things i want..and i know it is going to take a lot of work to reach those goals...pretty much at this time next year i dont want to look back on my year with sadness and disappointment..2010 was a year of learning..of making mistakes..and being forced to learn to deal with it and take things a day at a time..

i want to be more positive..i want to be happier..i think that was my goal for last year...to just be happy..this year i want to do things to help me have that happiness..

this is progress??!!  gosh i hope so...i do think that working on being more positive will be a good step..i really do...

so ill end all of this by just saying Happy New Year to all my friends and family.  I hope the new year brings you comfort, joy, and lots and lots of love. 

-me