oh i am frustrated!!!

i am really feeling incredibly frustrated right now becuase of my pdoc session today....yes i realize that the pdoc is responsible for my meds and for being careful and making sure i am handling them well and all of that..but i thought they are also supposed to listen and pay attention to the client? ugh...i really feel like she thinkis that i jut want the meds for some other reason than taking them or something..i dont know...i mean today i asked her to make a couple changes..nothing that i havent talked with her about before really..i asked to stop the celexa and go back to the lexapro..and i asked for the effexor to be changed to the xr for because i take 3 pills a day right now..and i often forget the evening dose until much later and all of that...simple requests you know..but its like i asked for something off the wall and was given the 3rd degree about it and then i just became submissive and stopped trying to explain myself and just agreed with what she was telling me...i know that antidepressant have a huge fatique side effect and i know that changing the doses and all of that can cause that to happen more frequently and stuff..but these are also meds that i have taken already and that are not completely new...the doses havent changed..its just been a back and forth thing for a few months cas of insurance and all of that...back when i didnt have insurance i asked her if i would bt able to go back to the lexapro when i could afford it again..i did..i know i did..and so today i ask and its as if ive done something wrong and i dont understand what makes her so upset with me :(  i really dont... and before i went to see pdoc i saw t and had talked about my attention and distraction issues..and yes i know im bad with them..i know i can tend to procrastinate..and put off and not do my work..but its gotten worse and i think that it is more than just me not doing it..and i just got all mixed up trying to talk to the pdoc about it..but she pretty much refuses to even consider a med to help me get my focus under control..as i was leaving she mentioned the possibilty of sending me to be tested...but by then i didnt want it..i just wanted to get out of her office and away from her...i mean i work with adhd kids and adults enough to know the symptons and all of that...but its like just the fact that i even asked for a medication to help with my attention was off the wall and i shouldnt have done it type thing..and it is confusing me a lot..i mean i wanted her to juts consider it you know or something.but the response i got was the oppisite..and i dont know what i did...you know i was fine with t and able to talk about my concerns and everything..but with pdoc i just freeze up and get scared and mix up all im trying to say......and i dont know...im trying to consider her point i am...but i juts feel really unheard right now