a lot of worrying

feeling a bit flighty and distracted tonight...just got off the phone with mommy so maybe thats way...

all that paperwork that i said i was going to do ahead of time..havent done..but im not to worried about it ..cas well i know it will get done... but being out and running around all day makes me so so very tired ...like i get home and i dont feel like i can do anything..even though i plan to do stuff..i just come home and lay down and try not to fall asleep to early..

trying to figure out money for the weekend..well more so for gas and groceries and such..you know until the past couple months i really never realized how much i go to the store just for little stuff..and now im stuck planning out trips to the store and all of that..ugh...im hoping and hoping for October to hurry up and get here...when things will be just a little bit easier..money wise...you know now that my sisters birthday is over ..im starting to stress about my birthday..and i have to keep reminding myself that i dont have money and actually have to work anyway so its not going to be a big deal..but that makes me sad and upset..cas well kinda wanted to do something fun and now i dont have the money for anything..and i guess its just all around disappointing..so trying not to think about it...maybe by then will have a little bit of money to spend on something a little bit fun..but i dont know..not really counting on it..but just trying to keep it together..cas i guess im starting to feel overwhelmed with the month ending soon..and well bills needing to be paid and all that..and yeah..its starting to wear on me and im worried about it all again...and yeah this week will make things so much easier and more manageable if my weeks kinda stay like this..work wise..but that still means getting through half of september..and mommy constantly asking how much im going to make and how much im working and all that she is giving me is really just bothering me too.. everything is well bothering me..and mommy is giving me a little bit of spending money tomorrow..and my car is sounding weird and its really bothering me a lot be cause i think its my brakes and i dont have the money to get it checked or fixed and im praying that my car will just last a few more weeks and i swear ill take it to get new tires and everything..i really will..but i just need a little more time...and i got the first part of my bill for t and just like i was thinking its almost at $400...:( and yeah...have i mentioned im feeling overwhelmed?! because there is actually a lot of car stuff i need to get done that i cant get done yet..and i need to plan a trip to nc to get some of it done and i cant cas i dont have the money..but im going to need my sticker thing for my car soon..and yeah if i get pulled for anything ill be in trouble..cas my sticker will be out of date at the end of this month..you know yesterday was the first time ive actually turned off the air conditioning in the apartment since like may?! and its not super hot in the apartment and its been kinda cool outside the past couple days because of all the rain..and well im trying to start cutting down the electric bill cas its late..and umm yeah .. just a lot that im thinking about tonight..