with my jobs im being as patient as i can be...like with waiting for clients and stuff..and im just kinda coming to terms with the fact that it will take some time and all of that..and you know i can deal with that. like when im having a day like today when im not feeling so stressed about it i can deal with it lol..and like im never mad at the jobs..i get mad at everything else but not the jobs...go figure..so i know ill get there but just trying to be patient and deal with the fact that my first checks next month will pretty much suck..and mommy doesnt want to loan me any more money :( cas she keeps mentioning that she hopes my checks will cover rent..and ive already told her twice that i know i wont have all the money for rent..she knows this.. and that makes me feel so stuck..because if i cant get it from her then i dont know what ill do..and im not even gonna get into the other bills that im just not able to pay and yeah..its just hard..and disappointing..but i try to remind myself that i am working..even though im not seeing much in the way of pay right now...but soon that will change..gosh i hope it will change..
so guess thats my rant for today..
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