stress at work ...

work has been super stressful this week..we have had girls run away and they are all becoming way more sneaking and just ugh..a lot of arguing and yelling and hard things ... we have 10 girls in the group now..and there is always something going on..


there is something about yesterday that is really really bothering me..with so many girls in the group now we had the director come and talk to us about some of the behaviors..and maybe that is why im feeling so stupid...juts about all the girls have SA in there history..i knew that..but they are all starting to show 'grooming' behaviors..and that im just not understanding at all..im not getting how and why its going on..and i think ive been on the receving end of a couple attempts at grooming from the kids and i didnt even know or realize it..and its juts like little comments, or touching without asking..and i know my boundaries with them arent the firmest..but just the conversation yesterday is really bothering me because im not getting it.. but then i feel disappointed becase its one of the older girls that are kinda playing the younger girls for fools..and all that was learned yesterday is making me step back and relook at the girls..and i dont want to judge them because i know they are caught in this huge cycle of hurt and love and not knowing how to just be friends..but they are in a way preying on each other..trying to fullfill some need to dominate and hurt and its bothering me in a really big way..maybe ive juts been super naive but im feeling really manipulated by some of them..and i shouldnt i dont think..i dont know.. i need time to process and think through it but one day is not enough ..i have to be with them all weekend and im afraid my hurt feelings arent going to go away that quickly... i cant even tell if im taking it to personally and that makes me a little afraid to approach my supervisor about my concerns..i dont want to be told again not to take it personally ..i dont

im just worried..and on edge and really really confused