pathetic ..

ive been sitting here for a while doing nothing worth mentioning..just thinking about everything and nothing and getting no where with it..i wish i could process what was going on in my head but i cant..to many thoughts of everything and nothing and it just gets confusing..i want my old t..not the new one..and im not even sure where to go with that line of thinking because i know its not the same anymore and thats not helping all the current sad feelings..actually ive just been sitting here feeling pathetic and sorry for myself and upset and sick and not many happy feelings..just a general im screwing everything up feelings/thoughts..i just dont know what to do with myself today ..lots of bad bad thinking today..its tiring