really nervous about work today...just agitated and i keep thinking about it and worrying and trying to figure out how exactly i want to do things..im nervous for my shift partner..and well she has a meeting today and is super worried about if she will be fired or not..and theres not much i can do but wait with her and see what happens..but im also super nervous about the weekend without her..and how that will play out...so a lot going on in my head ... i did email linda yesterday and asked her to call me...and im trying hard to keep writing about all my thoughts and stuff cas i think i really need to keep talking about it and ill have to bring it up with the new linda on tuesday next week..im constantly reminding myself to take it a day at a time because worrying so much is really just driving me crazy..but i keep worrying and ugh..
my sinuses are a pain right now..but finally went and bought some meds yesterday..made myself go out a couple times yesterday so that i wouldnt isloate myself and just feel sorry for myself..so i went out..and still felt super sorry for myself but at least i was doing it away from home, and was still able to distract myself a bit moree..
other than that the usual stress and what not is going on..thinking im having super weird dreams but i never remember them anymore..i see the pdoc next week and i think i want to try another antidepressant..dont know which one..but will see..and figure it out with her..
worked on my taxes yesterday and got most of that stress out of the way..
mmm dont know what else to talk about..really not feeling good but just gonna have to relax as much as i can before work today..
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