sometimes i just hate how anita and courtney and sarah and nia are right .. in that i will eventually make it to the other side of the dark thoughts...and im getting there...and i know my anxiety is still way high but im no longer plotting my death...i cant..i dont want too...its just hard remembering that sometimes ...yes right now things are rather suckish...and im easily annoyed with things...and i dont have a job or money...but oh well i guess....i dont know really....im just so so tired...which is more of the depression and things but no im not going to die ... or go away... some how my thinking is beginning to turn itself around..i dont know why..or how..or why..but it is...
im ready for vacation...im just really ready to get away...im worried about a lot of different things..and worrying hard about how things will be working out...but it just has to work out i guess...i do need to stop over medicating though...i still feel sick and tired...but did come to the library today and did fill out for unemployment...and applied for a couple jobs...and now my attention is wavering and im gonna be going to therapy soon...so technically i have accomplished my goals for today ..if nothing else...
have i mentioned that i am ready for vacation ???
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