Calmer

Right now I'm feeling tired and slightly nauseous... Something that I ate  really is not agreeing with me at all ...I had pancakes and a little bit of bacon and a little bit of potatoes for breakfast... And then nothing until a little bit ago when I just made a sandwich and had some pickles in a few chips..  My stomach is just not feeling right I don't know ...my day has been pretty frustrating ...I'm getting much more annoyed at Tramaine and her cousin being here ..I'm annoyed that she pretty much told me I needed to get my stuff out of the living room so she could clean up... And then she left to go out with someone and stuff is still all over the floor in the living room.. But I went and moved all my stuff into my room.. Put on some music and started going through my stuff... I think I made a fair amount progress with my clothing at least ..and I got my books out and my shelf  things set up ..I'm not finished but I'm done for today... I'm feeling really lonely.. I'm not angry anymore I'm just really sad... I wish my mood would even itself out.. I do see Courtney on Monday ...maybe she'll be able to help me figure something out.. My thinking is  still going to cutting and suicide when I get into these moods..its hard trying to keep fighting.. Right now I'm just watching Spongebob and laying down because I'm still not feeling really good... I wish I was at Sarahs and not by myself