ever since i was much younger i have been picked on..the way i talk..the way i dress..how i act..what music i listen to..what foods i like..all of it..sometimes by people who know nothing at all about me...how many times have i been told that i dont act black enough..that im not black..that i talk to proper..that i dont listen to the right music..i dont understand what the problem is...i didnt realize there was a set of rules on how to be black and i guess i just missed that lesson in school...i listen to music i like because i like it..not because of the race of the person singing it...i like the food i like because im a creature of habit..if its new i dont care who cooked it..i may not eat it..it has nothing to do with race...no i dont like all southern cooking, yes i pronounce my words when i am speaking, yes i dress in clothes that fit, and not like i am struggling to breathe in what i have on..yes i knew absolutely nothing about braiding hair, wigs, weave, none of it..until recently...but that is because of how i grew up..the color of my skin labels me as black..but thats all it is..its just the color of my skin...yes my mom is black..im assuming my bio parents are black..im sure my children, if i have any are going to be black..there is really no way around that..but i will not teach my children that there is a certain correct way to live and be juts because of the color of their skin...no i did not grow up in the projects. i have traveled a lot, i have been a lot of places, and i dont plan to stop just because someone else thinks i am trying to be better than them...its not about that..there is an entire world out there and im not planning on staying in one place...i refuse too..my mom may have done a lot of things but teaching me to be racist and judgmental is not one of them...that is not who i am..and never have been..yes i grew up going to dance class and was the only black girl in the class..yes i have been to a million different dance things and heard all types of music..so i like a lot of things..who cares if i like musicals or rap or pop..its all played on the radio...ive taken latin and archery because i felt like it..i watch channels other than BET because i feel like it..i dont care much for rap because there is to much cursing in it...its not that i dont listen to it..its just not a preference...im not crazy because i am black..geez
and the one thing that gets me the most ... is that it is other black people who tell me im not black enough...that i dont act black..that i dont talk like im black...it is hurtful i guess because it is a direct stab at who i am as a person...because what i like is being judged based on my race and that is not fair...
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