angry

right now i think i am angry about a lot of different things..but mostly right now i am angry about this post i saw on fb...there was a story in the news a few days ago about an 8yr old who had died after being married to 40 yr old man..who proceeded to have ssex with her...the end result..the 8yr old ends up in the hospital and later dies from internal injuries..i am angry..im horrified..hurt..and scared because this happens every single day..and marriage is not a part of it..age is not a part of it..race..heritiage..where you live..flying fuck..no of that freaking matters...being a child these days makes no sense to me...when i was a child..things made no sense to me..i was told to obey..i was told to listen...when i did obey and listen and not refuse..i was hurt...and then i just made it okay..i made it my fault..i made it all about me..i was wrong..i should have known better..i ..me..i ..me..never ever them...never...i was not forced into marriage as a child ..no...but the culture in 3d world countries use that practice still...children are sold like cattle..hurt and forced and left to a life that is not fair and becomes all they know..

i happened to run across a post on fb relating to the article..and i understand free speech.i understand that people are able to say what they want to say..and it doesnt really matter who gets angry in the process...but how in the hell do you describe how to have sex the correct way with a child??? how do you say you have done it? that you enjoy it? that you are experienced?  not once was blame placed on the 40 yr old man...but the child is dead..and that will be the fucking end of it...who will remember her??? who will tell her story??

this world is majorly fucked up..

i think i may take my meds early and just go to bed....im very triggered ..and not in control right now....