trying hard to not over react...

but i am over reacting..my anxiety and worrys are going overboard ..majorly..and im scared...so so so scared and worried..and afraid of what in the world i am going to do with myself and my stuff..will i be able to find another job ? will i have to move?  will i be able to keep my cats ? all going through my head..over and over and over ...and i dont know what in the heck to do...im applying for jobs..i am..but even  that is overwhelming..and i am going downhill fast...i dont want to be bothered..i just want to lay in bed and not have to deal with anything or anyone at all...yes i talked to a few people..but im the one that is looking at everything changing ..and changing fast...if i dont find a job by the end of the month..i am screwed...and im scared...and fighting hard to stay safe...but every day im wearing down just a little bit...i want the empty oblivion that the cutting will give me..i dont care..i want to hurt..i want to die..i want to scream and disappear and just..i dont know...i give up..