breathe

for the love of all things good...BREATHE!!!!!!!!!!!!

im nervous..like super duper jump out of my skin nervous..and ugh i dont know what to do with myself...im trying hard not to take any meds cas they will put me to sleep..but my head is going a mile a minute and i am worried and scared and nervous..and i dont know..wondering if my apartment is ok..if there is something i forgot to do..did i get enough snacks if needed..and having a 3rd person here too is hard...but will manage..i think the waiting is making it a little bit worse..but if i could juts calm down...

i dont even know what to wear!!

comfortable..dressy...we are going to be sitting in my house..and i dont really want to get all dressed up..but in my nervousness i want to look presentable...ugh..this is so hard..i dont know what im doing .. i really dont ..and now i just want to cry for being so .for not knowing how to do this...