but to write this down ... med change at the pharmacy again...ugh...hopefully i dont react badly to it again..i would rather not go back to how things were just a couple months ago...no thank you...
but ive been thinking...sorta about therapy on tuesday..what i remember of it anyway..abd of course alice is right ..but i get mad at her for being right..for telling me that it is my choice in stuff..i dont want it to be my choice..i want her to tell me what to do...and then i would hate her for telling me...my meds have been a little bit messed up the past few days and i can tell i am feeling more down than i have been..and ive been getting a lot of headaches ..in the afternoon/evening...like today...
im getting off track..
freakin a.ive now forgotten what it is that i was going to write about ...i dont remember...
i know this weekend is going to be a little busy..like im actually going to have real company..like real my age company..along with my 4 yr old ..but that is ok...i have to like clean my apartment majorly..
its so different having someone my age to talk to..and not being completely afraid and on edge...today was different though cas her aide was there..and that does make me more nervous..just cas its someone i dont know..but well...will have to get used to that...
oh im gonna sstart making to do lists for the day...an the week..i think having the structure will help me actually get things done..and maybe stop me from laying in bed so much...we will see..i want to go and get a new notebook from barnes and nobles but that will be expensive...i may hit up the back to school aisles tomorrow and ssee if i can find a good notebook..that wont fall apart! and i van use it to keep up with my therapy stuff..cas i forget what i tell her...essh...
but head is hurting majorly right now...so going to lay down for a bit..
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