Sunday, August 10, 2008

the wedding is over...the world still goes on

its funny how after something big like a wedding for a family member you realize afterwards that its not a big deal in the grand scheme of things..the world goes on..life goes on..its only important to the ones that were there... just an odd thing i was thinking this morning..im still feeling majorly worn out from the wedding and everything..and my feet hurt!!! gosh its a pain lol..being a girl is hard hard work..geez everyones feet were hurting last night ..it was funny..in a painful sorta way.

but the wedding was nice..its was pretty..i woke up really really nervous..but once i started getting dressed in the hotel with sissy and amber and ambers mom i was ok...a little edgy but nothing really bad...and then i was fine for the most part..didnt trip coming down the stairs ..didnt walk to fast..everything turned out ok for the most part..but there were a lot of little things that went on..like one of the groomsmen went home like an hour before the wedding..ppl were missing clothes and accessories..and nia needed different shoes and couldnt find her veil..and its was just lots of little things that stressed everyone out..but nia was really pretty in her dress and the colors turned out nice and it wasnt overly crowded but a lot of ppl showed up..i really cant wait to see the professional pictures...ive never had to take so many pictures ! my gosh..every time i turned around someone was snapping a camera..it was tiring though..even dee and riley and harris came..and our old dance teacher and it was cool seeing her :) and i tried hard to walk without looking at the floor..geez i think i stared right in front of me while i was walking..but my dress was nice and a lot of ppl told me i looked pretty and beautiful..and it was nice to feel pretty for a day..now im just back to being me and its like a let down you know..no i dont want to get that dressed up again anytime soon but its like im missing out on something..i dont know..but overall it was nice..once the actually wedding was going on (and it didnt last long at all!) you know i was ok and stayed calm...wanted to cut before the wedding but was ok with that too..and didnt do it..helped that i knew i could call linda if i had to or needed too..but i really was ok..didnt like all the attention or being looked at but i managed i guess..and now im glad i did do it...i wouldnt have wanted to miss it you know..



but this morning i did freak out because im missing money and i know i didnt use it but its not where i left it and no one bothered owning up to taking it..and i needed that money to pay for therapy..i was keeping it and refusing to use it because it was going to go towards therapy..and i go to get it this morning so i would have it and the money wasnt there and it really really pissed me off big time..now that money will have to come from something else and its like im short as it is for this month with everything else and ugh its so not cool..i know who i think did it but i cant just go and blame him without proof?! and where am i going to get that..i hate knowing someone has been going through my stuff you know...yea theres a chance i moved it and dont remember but i dont think i did...i wouldnt let myself spend it because i needed it because i know money would be tight this month..and now everything is just messed up..

1 comment:

Janet said...

Glad you survived and enjoyed some of it. Put up some pictures when you can!