suddenly ok

i dont know how or why but suddenly i feel ok again ..not that im really questioning it but its hard to be ok one minute and ready to die the next..i dont get it at all..


sad nia is moving tomorrow. i knew it was coming but to have mommy tell me that she really is moving makes me sad. i know shes married now and everything but i guess i never really considered she would really truly leave again..shes been waiting to leave almost as much as i have so it does make sense..but still it will take some getting used too..

work was fun today..in a big time boring kinda way..starting with a new cl and she is a talker and it is overwhellming..i almost miss the quiet monotony of my nonverbal cls! and not to mention i was told today that i may be getting someone else even because my notes are so good lol..i suck at my notes lol!! its funny..but at the same time its like ok..i can use as much work as i can get right now thats for sure..but im back up to 30 hours a week starting next week! geez its been so long lol. im not complaining but ill have to pay more attention to my notes and make sure im getting them done and turned in on time but still good about the hours. and it really was a lot of fun to go and switch out toys today!! dude it was so fun going through and looking for new books and puzzles and games and ideas for things to do..im so ready to see my kid next week just so we can use the new stuff!

but guess im off. babysitting soon!