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feeling quiet today.

dont want to do anything at all. would stay in bed if i could get away with it..but therapy, work and other stuff has to get done somehow..almost dont want to do to therapy...but then i never really do i guess..im disappointed that i didint get my paperwork turned in on time again this week ..i kept telling myself that i would do it over the weekend but the weekend came and went and i still hadnt done it..last night i did work on it some but i gave up when my mind started wandering and i couldnt concentrate.. i didnt want to concentrate..i didnt want to think much..worked on therapy stuff for a little bit but then started feeling sad and just stopped..went to bed but had bad dreams..and now its morning and i dont feel like doing anything at all..except well maybe crying but i wont do that either...im already ready for the weekend .. i need to turn in paperwork..i have to go to work..theres a lot i need to do..and dont want to..

hard to believe today is the two week mark..counted last night to make sure..checked for new scars to make sure i wasnt missing something..and no new ones..actually remembered the date from the last time because it was a really big issue ... wondering why i dont feel more excited about it..maybe its just the mood and it will get better after moving around more and leaving the house..but maybe im just to worried that something will happen..dont know