tired

feeling really floaty..alone..i dont know..maybe its just feeling spacey..but whatever it is i dont like it at all..had to wake up at 2 this morning to take mommy to the airport..a two and a half hour drive away..which she didnt trust me to do alone and so i had to have my older brother come with me..i didnt want him to come because well i could have done it by myself but also because she would make him drive at some point and im getting sick of him moving junk around in my car and changing the mirrors and stuff because then i can never get it back to the way i liked it..and gas is just to expensive now to keep having to go back and forth running errands for everyone and yet im still stuck doing it..so got back home around 6:30 in the morning and had to get up an hour later to take my sister to work and there went another hour and a half..i have big problems being woken up and not allowed to go back to sleep..and driving at 2 in the morning and being forced to stay awake wasnt cool and it was a huge just zone out time..like getting lost in my own little world and being jarred back out of it when mommy said something..i hate when it seems like i can go on autopilot and just do something but then someone outside of me messes it up and i have to go back to paying some sort of attention to whats going on...but im up and so tired but i dont even know if i can go back to sleep now..i thought i was going to zone out again when i had to take my sister to work but i think was to tired to do more than just stare at the road and hope i didnt hit anything..and today is going to be a late day because i get off work at 7 and have to go and babysit after that to around 11 i guess and then come home and then take myy brother to work in the morning and go clean the beach house on sunday for my other brother and go shopping for him and then go get mommy from the airport on sunday night around midnight and its like ok when am i supposed to be sleeping in there?! i dont do so hot with no sleep and its like everyone is expecting me to do a million things and no where in any of it is anyone taking into account that i might have something to do or something i want to do..i dont know just feeling lonely and dejected right now..maybe i should just go and lay down and see if i can fall asleep