tired`

not feeling to thrilled this morning..ok just really in a bad mood about everything..last night being at home with mommy being upstairs and yelling about everything just kinda threw me off..had gotten used to her just coming home and going to bed but last night she wanted to clean so she was around my room and telling me to do a better job and all this stuff..and this morning at 6 she was up cleaning again..made enough noise t o wake me up and didnt bother stopping for an hour..so now im up and so tired i just want to fall over and feeling so tired and upset and annoyed and freaking pissed off.. she could have cared less about how much noise she made and proceeded to drop every freaking thing she had i swear...i dont care about the cleaning but god she could have waited a couple hours..but me sleeping is not a big deal at all and that was her way of letting me know i needed to get up anyway ..
really wanted to cut last night..had a razor and everything..but i didnt

may not be going to ccali because the flights are to expensive..i was a bit wrong in my calculations and thinking the tickets would be under $300..too bad there not..so we will just keep an eye on the prices i guess..and if i can go i go but if not ill have to let her know sometime today that its not definite..blah..i hate not having money..but then just having an extra 500 thats not for anything else has never happened before..so not a huge deal i suppose..maybe another time.. knew it wouldnt be a good idea to get my hopes up

guess i better get off my butt and go get ready to babysit before everyone starts looking for me..