ugh

i hate being treated like im stupid..i hate being talked to like im stupid and i hate most of all not being able to keep how much money i have and what i do with my money to myself...its worse now that im at home but its not like im asking to borrow money or something from her..its the oppisite and i am managing to take care of my bills and get things paid that i need to and i know what im paying and when and still its like she has to be in charge and is yelling at me about how much money i have and dont have and what i should be paying and what i dont need to be buying..god i idont do that much stuffi in the first place and its not like im spending all my money on nothing and just blowing it because i have it..give me some credit here..she was with me when i went to do my taxes and just kept butting and saying stuff that had nothing to do with what i was doing and she just had to be in charge and in control and she stayed until she found out how much i was getting back and then she left...all the time shes asking how much i have..but im taking care of my own freaking bills and its like it counts for nothing at all and i dont know what im doing and all this stuff and its just a pain in the butt bug time..and if i lose my temper or even seem like im mad then im back to being selfish and mean .. it sucks..

and after i was so happyish and ok the past few days..even today because i was managing to get stuff done and actually being able to stay on task and run errands i needed to run..and relax at home and read or play video games when i wasnt doing anything..and its like she comes home and im in trouble for not cleaning up and im getting yelled at about money and its like all the good i was feeling a minute ago is just sucked away and i go back to feeling miserable again..it just sucks