is it wrong to not like one of my kids?? i dont like ppl who brag and she seems so fake and selfish and ugh i dont know..i dont like her i really dont and i hate being around her..and the way she goes through the boys in the group makes me want to call her some really uncool names because she does it and she knows she is playing on everyones emotions and she enjoys it..more than once her behaviors have been laid out for her and she doesnt get it and i dont know how we can spell it out any clearer for her..i dont want to seem petty or stupid for this but i didnt really realize it until the other day..i knew there were issues there which i try hard to get over since i have to but now with all the other stuff going on with her i dont trust her..i dont want to be around her because she puts her bad mood off on others..she woke up in a bad mood this morning and i had to all but ignore her because she was bothering me...all the other girls in the group i like, even when they annoy me..even when i have to repeat myself a million times..i still have a measure of like for them..i enjoy talking to them or being around them and i dont feel like that with this particular girl..i dont know how to fix it..im not sure i want too..i want to see her through the semester and i want her to go and never come back..and that makes me feel guilty too..i dont like the way she refuses to get along with other ppl..i dont like how she goes running to certain ppl and ignore others..i hate that sometimes it seems like everyone is beneath her..the im a princess tirades are getting old really fast..
well thats one rant down about a million to go...
im really proud of one of our returning students..one of the girls in my group..i think ive told her a lot this past week how much she has grown up in the past few months..she is like a different person this time around and im so amazed at how well she is doing.. i think she will make it after she leaves this program ..if she even leaves..her parents pay a lot to send her here and she has been here almost none stop for a year in jan..but it is helping her..program going down the drain or not she is being helped and learning and i can tell..it was so shocking when i was talking it over with jim and realized that some of her behaviors are just about gone..the ones we had to correct her on so much in the first semester are not even an issue this time around..its shocking but humbling too in a way..its like holy cow ive helped her..ive really helped her and now i want to see her finish growing up..i want to see her graduate from school and go to college or whatever it is she has in her head to do after high school..
oh and it gets even better on the work front...we are getting a new kid!! this far into the freakin semester and we are leaving on sunday for dc and we are getting a new kid..i cant believe them..i really really cant and its going to be us that gets to deal with starting over with the entire group..because we are leaving and its not even like we can keep him at camp and let him learn how everything works..no we arent that lucky and i know he is only getting to stay so fast because his parents are willing to shell out the money to send him here..and it sucks that for some reasons the wonderful boss ppl havent taken into account what it is going to do to the group that is already set and just learning to work together to get a new kid..after losing a kid..its not going to as much fun in dc now because we already know the kids we can send off by themselves in publc and stuff when we go out..but we dont know him..he will have to stay with us all the time..no break .. ugh
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