holy cow

holy cow holy cow holy cow...

well first im watching one of those weird movies i seem drawn too..black snake moan..i wanted to see it when it came out and i found out what it was about but of course im paying half attention to it and its like my gosh what is going on..but its a good movie in an off way..hard to explain i guess..but interesting enough to watch once ..i dont think i could handle watching it again...but ill see how it ends..i may completely decide i need to have this movie and go and buy it eventually..*add on* it was a really good movie :)

but back to the reason for all the other holy cows...i think i may actually be going back to key west in dec! i wasnt really thinking we would do it but now its like ok we need to make the reservations and get it planned because we may never have the chance to do it again and for some reason jim wont go without me lol..funny how the most random ppl we meet turns out to be really good friends...one of the few i have but anyway..so now i am actually half starting to plan what i will be needing if we do go and if we are going to be camping out when we get there...lots of things to decide and figure out..but now we are looking around for a place to camp out when we are there..and of course everything is booked but its still kinda fun looking...and it was just painful looking at the hotel prices..its like 950 a night for a resort?!?! if i had that much money i would not be complaining about anything at all..but because we are uh just regular ppl and happen to live on a budget..it wont work out like that and we live on a budget so its like ok we will be camping out..not a big deal since we have done it so much..and its not so bad down there because of all the beaches and because everything is off of one main road for like 100 or so miles..its kinda nice having something to plan for even if it may not work out like we want it too... *add on* i may be going to disney world!! but thats a side track kinda thing and they need to know my schedule !

nothing to interesting to talk about though..decided to come home tonight because i was getting stir crazy at camp..and it was really a bit creepy being there pretty much alone...so i decided to just come home and get some stuff i needed anyway..ill most likely be spending the night tomorrow and then coming back on friday because it will save on gas and i can stay if i want to .. and then im off for the holiday and ill have to think of some way to stay busy and not stay in the house for three days straight like ill want too..but then i have to do laundry and go to the library and maybe even go to a movie on monday...and then i have to suffer and go on the staff hike..i know it wont be the 24 miles like over the summer but i really am not feeling like hiking at all and i almost hate that i have no choice in it...i know in the end ill be going and it wont be a big deal..ill do what i have to and finish the hike as always but i just hate that i didnt have a say in it more so because i was here last semester and we didnt do one..now i ahve to find all my hiking gear that ive stuck in various places and pull it all back out..but then maybe i will enjoy it and just love hiking for forever..i think i just stress way to much and the actual hiking isnt as bad as i make it out to be..but just knowing im going and that i have to go and that i have no option of getting out of it makes me nervous..and im just obssessing over it big time..but it will be one more hike to get through..but ok ill stop..its just a hike..

on a side note..im working very hard to stay focused and remind myself that i am working on dieting..without a ctually calling it that..but ive finally made it a point and stuck with going back to not eating meat...ill have to beat my last time stint where i lasted for almost a year and a half without giving in...i know it doesnt work for me at all and i just keep doing it..so ill see it goes this time around..but ive wasted enough time not writing on here and just leaving it open so ill go now