have you ever felt so incredibly hopeless and that you were walking into something that feels an awful lot like a trap but it could all be avoided with the simplest of words and i cant do it...i would rather drive myself crazy worrying about all of it and none of it and not being able to fix anything..if i could cry i would..but that completely escapes me..and im just feeling to spacey to really think any more about any of it..im still off from napping earlier and its been a slightly miserable afternoon..

hmm this feels like a waste of time...im trying hard not to cut and it takes so much more to try not to and really try than to just say screw it and cut..i hate trying