all day

'life is a breeze we live it for fun.no apologies to anyone' (the pippi longstocking song) has been going through my head..and at the oddest times! its a fun song but after about the 100th time ive mumbled the words to myself its like ok this has got to stop!

today has been weird..im so so tired and all of the running back and forth with spending all day and most of the night babysitting to go home and sleep and then come back to babysit again is tiresome...ive been with both riley and harris everyday for the better part of a week! yes ive made some extra money that i dont think ill be doing anything but paying bills with but oh well..i needed the extra and maybe ill be able to put some aside to do some fun stuff with..i dont know yet..and it depends on if i have to babysit tomorrow..overall it hasnt been bad or anything and ive loved hanging out with both of them but im just killer tired..today harris went with me to run a few errands and we went to the postoffice and the bank and to look for webkinz for my niece and it was supposed to be innocently looking and shopping for someone else..but no we had to find the one dalmation that was left and then gave it up for harris because he wanted it and then they brought out the new black cats..like just off the truck new and it was ok you keep the dalmation and ill get a black cat..who has been named salem :) great name too and it made my day..spending a lot of money on toys wasnt cool or expected but i wont complain..its not often i get to do things like that and its been forever since ive gotten harris anything so getting one for him wasnt a big deal..i wont mention it to mommy but it was fun..and if i come back tomorrow i know ill have to take riley to get one because its the fair and good thing to do and i would want him to have one from me anyway..but picking out webkinz for ppl who have a lot is hard and its better if he just comes with me and gets one hisself..so that was the splurge of the week and now its time to remember all the things i have to pay..uncool that its so much but ok i knew it was coming..or ive been putting it off..played with the crayola color explosion thing and that was really cool..its like special paper and markers and the colors and built into the paper and you can draw what ever you want on the paper and then the color just comes up in a way..kinda weird drawing an unhappy picture in bright and warm colors lol..but it gives it a funny effect..and it fits in a way..but its seriousl one of the coolest things ever..i got the fire and ice one but i think we will go back and get one of the darker ones too just to be fair..only one an a half more days left before its time to head back to work and i hate to admit im ready to go but i am..ome is just home and it sucks that its a place i would rather not be..home is where your happy ive been told..so maybe im still looking for the correct place to call home...anyway..other stuff in the world of me..the new saving jane cd rocks and i think i like everysong thats on it :) i go a new book about wolves..fiction but its really cool and im wondering who gave it to mommy and why she gave it to me..but its one i know ill really like and i cant wait to get home so i can read it some more...and its official ive had my license for a year and my insurance dropped aabout 80 bucks and that really made me happy last night when i saw it! i cant believe its been a year..i can still tell im not the best at driving and i still get freaked out really easy or hit the curb coming out of parking space or turning but im better at parking and going the speed limit..so maybe it is just a trade off...i wonder what ppl pay who have had there license for years? if im still almost at 300 and its only bee a year then those ppl must pay like 5 bucks lol..lucky...hmm what else..its less than a month until my birthday..and it will be really cool that yvonne is coming to visit..thats about all my looking forward too..it wont be a big deal and right around now i start telling everyone ive canceled my birthday anyway..maybe ill find something fun to do and it wont be a bad birthday..i dont know..im getting anxious to find out the work schedule for the next few months..im anxious to find out who ill be working with also..but i have to wait until monday i suppose..hopefully i will be on the road and heading back by 7am on sunday and i think ill go i40 way..i like it better than the way i come from sc..less highways to switch onto and i hate merging into traffic..plus i really want to know when the dc trip will be ..cant wait to go back to the zoo..i wonder if it snows in dc? i wonder if we will be camping in the snow? i wonder if its even possible to camp in the snow? i vote for sleeping in the van if its snowing!! if its the final trip then it wont be until nov late or early dec..so im just wondering ... but im alot calmer about things today..its like i know what it is i have to do or wat ive been coercerd into doing whatever..and now its just down to picking when it will all happen and how i want it to go..not thrilled but not a big deal..