bored

oh fun..mommy has taken out life insurance on me again..i know how much im worth..but then comes the tricky part of course ..she lied ..she lied on part of the application about me and now she calls and gets upset with me becase i cant be reached to validate i lie i had nothing to do with..and i had to do a stupid phone interview and it sucked..i mean just about all of it was the truth but good grief it was just long and stupid and made no sense..keep taking out life insurance on me and i may just have to up and die for the heck of it..im just annoyed i guess

hmm work is over with for the summer at least..and for that i am really really happy..it was really stressful and im just really tired ..so im glad of a week to do absolutely nothing at all..its fun and boring and so very dull..im thinking maybe ill go to the library tomorrow and get a library card and just walk around a little bit downtown...since ive put off going i might as well go now..im feeling a little better but my eyes still really hurt and i have a bit of a headache too..i hit my head in the pool the other night and didnt pass out or anything but it hurt and then i wasnt feeling good and so ive been sleeping a lot and just hoping it will go away..but its much better today ..so im just chilling and making a huge mess pulling things out and leaving them on the floor..its gonna be a pain in the butt to clean it all up though!!

ive made it a goal to clean up my room though..its not even cool how many clothes are pulled out all over the place and under everything...i guess the whole apartment could use a good once over..maybe i should go through and just get rid of all the stuff i dont wear..its bad enough my closet looks like a clown threw up in it i have so much stuff but mommy keeps buying me clothes and i dont need them! now i want to go shopping for new clothes just for the heck of it lol..i just got a ton of new clothes that im not sure im even going to wear really...mommy keeps buying me sleeveless shirts i cant wear and she knows it..but she buys them anyway and i look at them and it makes me sad that i cant wear them anywhere unless they are underneath another shirt...my fault but it doesnt lessen the saddness any...kinda sucks seeing everyone getting to wear tank tops and whatnot all the time this summer when it was killer hot and i stick to my tshirts like my life depended on it..i guess i didnt really think this far ahead when i started but now its like freaking heck what did i do..oh well..im not complaining..how stupid is it that i made a goal to go swimming in hooker falls..some day anyway with a bathing suit on..theres of course a lot more that would have to go into that planning but im working on it slowly..and like 5 years down the line im sure ill talk myself into actually doing it but for now its nice to think about..

hmm im just bored and worried about 50 million things right now..should prolly be starting to get stuff ready to go home..but to do that i have to start finding all my clothes again..