its after 1 in the morning and im still awake...getting tired though so thats good at least...went to the store and got groceries..still a bit leary with eating but im trying becasue i can not purge at work again..not cool..so besides sleeping tons today ive done nothing with the day really..not disappointing but its weird coming from work and being able to waste days at a time before having to go back and actually be productive...no idea what ill do tomorrow but it prolly wont be interesting in the slightest since im trying not to go anywhere until i actually want to put gas in my car and im holding off until thursday maybe friday before i do that..trying to decide if i want to go to the movies or not..ill wait until i see what my pay check is and then decide...bills ahve to paid and everything and that has to come before i start playing with money..and the way things are looking all money will be going to bills..blah..maybe somewhere in there ill get extra and be able to start saving..nothing big but i just want to save..id rather not watch all my money get eaten up by bills..so ill see..i really did waste more of my first check last month than i needed too..so i had my fun and now its time to really get things in order..hmm its too late to be reflective im going to be