hmm

its been a crummy few days ..and hopefully soon ill be sleeping since i have to wake up so early in the morning..i did take meds though so at least i know ill sleep..i cleaned up and stuff so now only my room is a mess as usual..talked to nia tonight and its surprising how alike we are i guess..well she thinks mommy is crazy too at least..not that i told her what i thought about mommy..maybe one day ill actually tell nia whats going on or some of it at least..we hang out and stuff now..yea it helps one of us can drive but we get along..we have always gotten along but normally we just lived together and did what we had to do..now its like ok lets go and hang out and do something..weird..but anyway considering my miserable day im feeling better..my arm will hurt a lot tomorrow..could have tried harder not to cut...could have tried harder not to purge also..but i didnt really care so ill suffer and get over it..nothing to interesting to tell i guess..still worried..still stressed but theres nothing to do about it until i get paid and then just pay what i can as it comes..no other way i guess but it still doesnt make me feel better..but meds are kicking in so i guess im off to bed