today

How different the world would be if it was filled with magic that is in movies and books…the good side would always win..everyone would be happy and safe and there wouldn’t be anything to worry about…life would be so very different but I guess it would also depend on who believed in what or who wanted to believe in it…I watched elf this morning and then decided I wanted to watch narnia again but elf made me think of why I don’t believe in santa but I will tell riley and harris that he is real because they believe in him completely..and it doesn’t really bother me to tell them that and we have had the if santa is real talk quite a few times..and its incredibly cute hearing them say someone in there class actually said it was parents who puts the gifts under the tree and how much they don’t believe it..and if I didn’t have to be serious then I would laugh at how silly it seems to be arguing over whether or not there is a santa in like august…I believe in the stuff that really doesn’t matter I guess…I don’t believe in santa or the toothfairy or the easter bunny but I do believe in dragons and fairies and magic…what really makes them so different? Well duh I guess its not that hard after thinking about it for a little while…santa, the toothfairy and all the other are the ones that parents use to make kids behave..guess that would be the short explaination..ive used the santa line occasionaly to get riley or harris to stop being so bad but it only works around christmas…and all of them are just excuses to get gifts and candy and toy and money…it doesn’t seem fair in a way…but I love christmas movies ..i love the ideas they try hard to get across mostly about the meaning of christmas and not really all the gifts and stuff…so why prefer to say fairies are real but santa isnt…because I don’t know…I came across them by myself.no one made me believe in them..good grief mommy might swear I was possessed if I just one day said dragons are real and that I wanted one…ive told riley and harris I want a dragon and im gonna name her snowball after we went to see eragon…maybe that’s why cartoons are so easy to like..they are so simple and colorful and not boring…even dusti looks at the tv when fairly odd parents happens to be on because its so bright and colorful..or else dusti is just a weird little cat! Oh and it snowed here last night ..and for some reason I don’t enjoy it as much as I usally would..maybe cas mommy called me first thing this morning and told me that I didn’t need to drive and henry said it was snowing where he was and so it must have snowed where I was..and I was just like ok great thanks again for the wonderful vote of confidence..geez I cant do anything at all it seems..ill never get away I guess..how can I get comfortable driving when im constantly being told I suck at it and don’t know what im doing…snow or no snow I have to go to work tomorrow morning and I have to drive myself there..