vent rant scream or cry..all of which are sounding pretty good right now...left out cutting because didnt want to really bring it up any more than i had too..really does suck though..really upset and completely back to being broke again...fun fun fun..i could scream im so frustrated with everything..so i was good and got my electric turned on..bad part being the deposit was so way more than i thought it was going to be..and i couldnt get out of paying it..so its like a huge chunk was just pulled out of the bank that i wasnt really expecting..and suddenly things are back to looking really really overwhelming or just one more thing to wory about..that i didnt really need added on at all..feeling really stupid as usual..not happy..and completely stuck because until i start getting paid i cant do anything except wait..and the money i did have from graduation stuff is really quickly being used up..nope not good at all