fears

this was a big cookout weekend for whatever reason and for some reason i got stuvk having to grill food that i had no intention of eating..the major problem with that is i dont like fire..flames scare me big time and i would rather not drop a lit match on dry grass..i was not happy at all aout that but i stil had to do it...end result i got sick ffrom all the smoke and it sucked big time...henry ddid come likght the matches for me and put them in but i still had to do everything else..stlil spent most of the time listening to how i need to workout and fix this and that and it just sucked...its like nothing im doing is good enough at all but i keep doing it..well trying anyway..but i came home and yvonne had made me a cake just because it was mondayh and added more orlando pictures to my door..it was cool and did improve my day some...still feeling like crap and my comp isnt working again..not looking forward to this week either