back home

im back at home now and my comp is working at the moment...not sure what is going on with that...very glad this day is over...im not in a good mood at all..i hate being rushed and i had to rush or risk being yelled at in front of yvonne...i didnt get half the things i needed from the store and ill have to wait until saturday now and hope yvonnes mom will do a grocery store and target run...i got new blades at the store because i was in a bad mood while i was shopping...but i dont think ill open them or anything right now..im trying to unpack and things but im not sure how far ill get tonight...i might read instead and just try to relax for a little while..i have to find a way to the doc on monday..and then classes start on tuesday...i need something to do so classes will be good... i told yvonne tonight about the buses and maybe with more ppl complaining they will make pinebrook a bus stop over the sumer...i dont want to walk to another bus stop just because i hate being late and to prevent that i would have to leave an hour early..who knows...cant say i dont need the exercise since im a pig anyway...yuck i got yogurt again..but ill make myself eat it...i wont like it but ill eat it even if it takes me all day..i just remembered today that laura is coming back in july so ill be working hard to lose weight before then..i should stop eating but that never works for long..and to make sure (or at least hope) i dont start purging again ill eat ... i dont know why the ed thing bothers me so much but it does...way more than cutting ever can...i work very hard at making sure no one finds out about the pruging but im still purging on purpose..and thats an ed and i know that but i still dont believe it..since im not like having any weird health problems from it..i dont know...i really should have this convo with arran instead of with myself...