who am i?

i cant help but question everything today...ive been in a really bad mood the past couple days...but then im writing this with every intention of burning when im done...i dont know who i am...and i should..i should have everything worked out and i dont...im tired of being asked what im going to do when i graduate..geez i stilll have a year and a half left in school why do i have to think about it now...im not even sure ill make it to my graduation..cant say i care either...i dont want to know of something else i have to do..let me finish one degree before im expected to get another...i want to purge, more than i want anything else right now but i would rather die than to do that..i want to do so much right now but i cant do anything...feeling way to much right now im driving myself crazy...what i want to do and what i need to do conflict so much and im just stuck not knowing what is going on...i just know that everything hurts and i dont like it.