sometimes...

sometimes i just feel invisible..and no matter how hard i try i cant get seem to fit in..or be heard..or be seen....sometimes i just wonder why i cant be more screwed up..why cant i demand attention and support..what is wrong with me?? im not well enough to stay stable on a weekly basis..but im not screwed up enough to stay in constant crisis...i dont understand :(   guess im just feeling majorly sorry for myself tonight..