i dont know where my money is going...im planning and budgeting and still i cant seem to get a handle on things..i understand that it takes time and effort and that im prolly hoping for a miracle after like a week ..and so yeah im feeling frustrated that im not sticking to the budget and that i dont have the money i need to get things done...im frusstrated and broke and i just want to scream...and once again i just keep telling myself to make it through the day..the week..the month...i just have to get through the month and next month with taxes and possibly a new job things will look better..things will be less stressful...but i have to get through the freaking week first ...and ugh..i dont know how to do it..i dont know what to do..and im stuck again...
i did my taxes last night and well im going to be getting a refund back..more than i thought i was going to get...especially since i was freaking out about owing taxes and not getting a refund at all..but welll yeah..as it turns out i am getting some back..and all ive been thinking of is what i want..what i need and what i should spend the money on...and im frustrating myself even more because wanting stuff overshadows what i need to use the money for and im just ugh...i have things i have to do..you know..but im going to spend my refund on my car...i need my windshield fixed..i need to get some work done on my car you know..and so i know i need money for that...and then i want to use some to get some things i need...like well clothes and shoes...and well then i want a new video game system...a ps3 and a couple games...and then i start to feel guilty becuase there is so much other stuff dealing with bills and things that i need to use the money for ..and all i can think about is what i want..and how much fun i can have with the money im getting back..and so i feel stuck with it all..maybe i will break the money into three parts...1) savings 2)bills 3) fun 4) car...ok so 4 sections..and maybe i can figure out a way to make it even and still feel like im doing something productive with the money and not just blowing it ..i dont know...still got some time on that one though i guess ...
and well feeling really nervous and anxious about the possible job and the apartment stuff...the waiting is driving me crazy..and the longer i wait the more crazy and anxious im feeling about it all..and well i guess im just distracted lately..i dont know...
-sigh- im not feeling like i know much right now..
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