a bit nervous i guess

so i have this person who may or may not turn into a relationship type thing...but because of something that happened i kinda pulled back  a bit..and just stopped with the always talking to this person and everything..and lately for whatever reason the need to talk to him and i need to be with him..and thats its own sort of problem cas we are like a million miles apart..but i dont completely understand the feelings and i dont know how to explain what i feel towards him..and then the whole relationship things gets messy cas i say him but well its not really outwardly a guy/girl thing and well yeah...messy situation...but well i guess the whole reason i am even thinking of this is because i had a dream about him..a intimate dream but not like full out sex dream..but pretty up close and personal..and it just goes against everything i know about touching and being alone and everything..and i dont know..it makes me uncomfortable and yet i know that deep down i want it..i truly want to be loved and touched and held and kissed and all of that..but i dont know..it all confuses me and i dont know where to talk about it..