theres really nothing to say....

i got a call today about my check for this week...i wont be getting it..i wont get paid until the 29th of the month...3 full weeks away..what am i supposed to do about money?! what am i supposed to do about anything ??  im at the end of my rope .. im upset and frustrated and the negative thoughts are extreme right now..i just want to go to bed..i dont want to work ..i dont want to do paperwork..i dont want to do anything right now..i just want to sleep cas that will stop me from doing anything bad..i just want to hurt..to destroy something..and im all that i have..im going to go and try to stay busy..but i dont care..im just tired of all of this..so very very tired...and dejected...and things just keep messing up..things keep screwing up..and i cant deal..i just cant..