i want to self medicate.big time tonight..and i guess thats putting it nicely. i dont understand. i dont get it. i felt fine earlier i did. and ive just been laying down this evening. not really doing anything. and i suddenly feel cut off..alone..and wanting to just sleep away hours and hours... i dont know whats wrong anymore
you know..sometimes i really think that the only thing that saves my life is my lack of motivation...i cant od if im just refuses to get up and go get the stupid medicine...and by the time i do get up ) i havent yet) ill not even want to od anymore..may take extra to get the thoughts/feelings to stop..but not going to die...not tonight...
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