well did end up going to the hospital the other night with a client..and i freaked out pretty badly with it...i dont know what happened..but i was fine until i actually got to the hospital and then i just got really paranoid and scared and yeah it was not good..i had a lot of trouble staying grounded and present and i felt like i was a mess..and so yesterday the feelings where still kinda lingering and yeah..it was not good..essh but got through yesterday..and im glad because now its saturday and i can have a break!
yesterday was mostly good until my last client and then i ended up not even completing the session because he was being off the chain and i wasnt staying there...so i left..it wasnt worth it at all..to stay..when he was just doing what he wanted and being a royal pain in the butt...and not listening..so i was feeling really upset and on edge last night...but yeah..other than that ..yesterday was more manageable than i thought it was going to be..
today is going to be a super quiet day lol...about to start cleaning up stuff...and then have to go out and run some errands later today..and go to the library..and then just hanging out at home for the rest of the day..nothing to thrilling going on at all...
you know it really stinks getting paid and yeah it all going to bills...yuck ..but im getting paid and at least i can start paying on stuff again..i hate playing catch up!...but yeah..things are getting better ...keep reminding myself of that...
and i was in walmart yesterday and i was over by the deli part and one of the guys that worked there just like handed me a rotisserie chicken and i was like ok lol...and then i stood there for a couple minutes cas in my head it was like..ok whats going on..did this really just happen?! but yep..there was a free sticker on it i guess i just happened to walk up at the right time lol...so yeah ill be eating chicken for like the next week it looks like lol...
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