hmm i think my allergies are acting up...didnt even really realize that it was spring and the pollen all over my car annoyed me and then yesterday i really didnt feel good and its like oh..spring..some years it doesnt bother me at all..and some years its a reall pain in the butt..so started taking some over the counter stuff and im hoping it will help..

still more in a bad mood than anything else...being sick doesnt help much..but i cant seem to keep my mood ok anymore..also i dont want to do anything at all..if i didnt have to work i think i would just stay in bed..if i could get out of work and didnt seriously need the money i would stay in bed..so i guess its a good thing i worry so much about money and working..back to being tired all the time now..i dont want to do my paperwork and im falling behind again with it..i have a lot to do and i cant seem to get myself in gear..i organize and set it all up but when it comes to writing it i just sit there and stare at the screen..hoping maybe that the words will magically fill the screen for me.. and even though i know i have to turn it in i hate doing it..and so i keep talking myself out of it..and just keep falling behind ..

i suck