Whining about health issues I guess

I don't feel good and I don't really know why... And yes I have a headache and I'm hungry and I'm tired I just want to lay down and go to sleep and not have to think about anything... I keep thinking that I need to take better care of myself and then at the same time its like I don't care enough to take better care of myself... I'm annoyed that I don't have all of the medicine I need and then I'm not eating the right food tonight I'm not taking my medicine like I'm supposed to and all this other stuff and its just stressing me out... I check my blood pressure at work today and yesterday and it's been super high and I'm not sure if I trust the cost that I was using but it has me concerned all the same because I'm not taking my blood pressure medicine... Cuz I don't have it... I forgot about taking the metformin because it was for both the diabetes and the Pcos ...I completely forgot that the metformin was needed for more than one thing and I hadn't been taking it... I feel really stupid that I did not realize that the Pcos causes cysts.  Somehow I didn't put two and two together and just had forgotten... I know I should be taking better care of myself but again these moods and I don't want to or I can't... There's always something that has to come first is always something else that I need to take care of someone else that I need to take care of... But I'm never first on the list and now for whatever reason I'm feeling more concerned about my health... Because I had been losing weight and now I'm well worried that with the medicine.. Well with the birth control change that I'm not feeling good and its making me hungry... And I guess I'm just getting mad at myself because I'm not eating and then I'm overheating and its just... There is no balance right now... I'm just feeling really unsettled and out of sorts and I just can't figure out why... Something is bothering me again I really can't identify what it is