i cant breathe..which is only making me feel more upset and panicked ...i didnt mean to start crying..i really didnt .. i didnt mean to complain..i just want to be quiet..somehow get through the days..and just deal with whatever it is that i need to deal with..first in a long line of obstacles is getting through the appointment with the med doc tomorrow..no crying..no breaking down..no nothing at all ..wont help anything anyway..i just want the stupid meds so i can sleep ..cant keep bbreaking down...ive already been told i complain to much..so i wont complain..i juts wont say anything so that its not taken the wrong way...wont be able to talk on the phone for a while i guess..till i manage to calm down anyway..i have a couple hours before work..so maybe ill be able to calm myself down and make it there on time.