dazed

the unfair part of stopping and restarting the head meds is that the side effects come back..im so tired today..slightly sick to my stomach..but tired..i just want to sleep and ive spent most of the day already sleeping..but i feel as if i could go right back to sleep...but im not tense lol..sometimes i just have to remind myself of the little things ..or else i just end up overwhelmed...

you know i was thinking about it the other day..about cutting and what not..and actually got mad...told myself that i wouldnt give my ex-therapist the benefit of upsetting me enough to lead to cutting...no..i havent cut at all..and for now im not really feeling the urge as much...but for the first time i think i really was feeling very upset about it..

i have fully decided to do the room...nervous and scared and needed a few days to get used to the idea..i got scared..i was scared of leaving the hotel ..and was nervous...so a few days to kind of calm myself down was needed...is needed...but finally got my meds ..and called the other apartment place and left another message. 

did get to talk to curvon and his mom last night. . hopefully will be able to see them on sunday.

i miss them. i miss sarah and the weather is just not working in my favor right now ..ugh...but am safe and sound...hopefully ill be feeling better soon..

i think im just going to let the therapy stuff go..there is to much other stuff to worry about...guess ill manage some how...as usual.