being an adult...

and today...i keep thinking that i have to be an adult..i have to make sacrifices..i have to deal with the fact that i need money and i dont have enough to last through to my next pay check..and im about sick to death of over drawing my account..i am...and so what does that mean?  what is that going to look like for me?? it means that i have to step up and make some decisions that i dont really want to make at all..i have to figure out a way to get money without asking mommy..i dont want to ask her..and my sister cant loan me any..my brother said maybe..but i need more than a maybe..so that just leaves me with saleing a couple things that i have..and believe me its not much.but its something..and as much as i hate it..and loathe doing it..well i cant get around it right now..im tired of owing everyone money...i really truly am..im tired of owing the bank money..im just tired of freaking money period..and its not like i have cable or anything right this minute anyway..and yeah..just suckish decisions on top of more suckish decisions...yuck