things are just very depressing right now..im feeling worried and tired..and stressed out and anxious...i feel like im always going to be this way and nothing can help me..
i saw the pdoc today and talked about the meds and stuff..and shes adding a new one..to see how i handle it and if it helps..i wish i could just make myself happy and then none of this would be an issue..but i cant..i cant do anything it seems ...but im trying effexor..going today to see how much it is going to cost..and if i can get it filled this week...she talked about mood stabilizers and other stuff that could be possibility if i really cant handle the current type of med..and well she also talked about the possibility that she may not be able to help me..just based on her experience and stuff..and i know shes giving me fair warning but its like im just losing everyone right now..and it stresses me out..and my thinking went down hill really fast...irrational or not..
i just feel like i am falling apart..and i really cant be helped
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