from yesterday

today really was a pretty ok day in general. therapy was hard because couldnt seem to talk when i was asked what i wanted to talk about. i dont know why that happens. i did manage to tell her about my teacher though. and then we just talked about power and control and stuff with mommy. not sure yet what i think about it all though. thinking about a lot of different things, a lot of old stuff that went on and i think it counts as you know taking power i think :-/ maybe a control issue i dont know yet. but anyhoo it was hard but not horrible. ive done worse thats for sure.

ok since couldnt finish this last night thanks to harris playing around with wanting to get on the comp..guess ill finish it now while they are still in bed.

mm yesterday. well my hours are being messed with again :( something but authorization and whatnot so i cant go certain days and its so stressful because i hate hate surprise schedule changes..but ok fine..sometime next week im gonna have to go and let them know i need more hours..not sure yet how ill be fitting them in..but yea more hours would be good. and the girl i was working with yesterday actually had a productive day. i was so excited..she was up and already doing stuff when i got there..i didnt have to talk to her again about finishing her chores on time to do something fun..and so yesterday we got to go to the library, the arbortreum, and the mall to get free trees. the mall thing was pretty cool and they were giving away seedlings and so we got 10 trees for her aunt cas well i wasnt to interested in it. but still a good thing you know. would have liked one but with mommy and being home, not real sure about just planting a tree in the yard..but it was still fun..and thats the most we have done in ages!! so it was nice. and then i had to babysit and i spent the night and pretty much started falling asleep at 9 go figure lol..but both riley and harris kept waking me up cas we were watching the incredibles ...again..and they kept waking me up for the parts i like..and then i had to tuck them in and told them good night a bazillion times and promised to make pancakes and bacon for breakfast lol..and then they went to sleep..

but not home you know..thats good. been even longer since i havent been home all weekend. dont think im spending the night tonight and will have to go home but still its been a nice break..