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so today i wake up and i feel ok..havent had that in a while..i want to go somewhere but i cant for the most part because gas is killing me yet again and i swear those stupid gas prices keep going up..ugh..so unfair..but im just glad i feel ok today..but im guessing if im hanging out at home maybe ill work on some more art stuff..i read all day yesterday..but i didnt feel good..but i tried to stay out of mommys way because she did her you arent good enough speech more than once yesterday and it just made me mad..didnt help that i just went and started thinking i suck and everything..it didnt last long but i still thought it...i got myself sidetracked doing other stuff after i wrote for a while..played video games and read..and that was my day...fairly boring and after a while i was really bored..but today will be better i think..

hmm have been thinking about the trip overseas a lot and i think ive settled on doing grad school first before deciding to go over seas..that makes the most sense to me and i know im not going to be able to get over $3000 in the next year..not with my pay checks lol..not gonna happen! but still when i can i will try to save a little bit just in case...but yea i think grad school first and then doing other stuff because i do want to be finished with school completely..so i will see..and even still i think it will be 3 or so years ...

alright im off to find something to do with myself today..