random things

i really really hate when things just kinda come up and im not expecting them..more so when it has to do with a butt load of money that i dont really have..soooo i had kinda forgotten that i got a citation thingy..and im still not really sure what the difference is in a citation and a ticket..but oh well..and i suddenly realized today when i was looking at the calendar that i was running out of time to pay it before i was in a heck of a lot more trouble over something as stupid as a registration sticker..yea it really was my fault so i see no point in taking it to court or anything..so i have to pay it but i really wasnt thinking i would have to pay freaking over a $100 for it..when i actually got around to calling the court and asking i found out its $145 to be exact..now the problem with that is ..i dont have an extra couple hundred laying around collecting dust somewhere..yea it would be awfully nice if i did though...so one way or another ill have to pay it and in to process i get to watch my little tiny savings account go back down to nothing..but oh well..trying hard not to stress about it..because its one of those things that i have to do and cant put off at all..ok well not past next monday anyway..and im really considering just driving to greenville on monday and taking care of it instead of mailing it..but havent decided yet..have to wait and see what ill be getting paid this week..because i really have no idea what my paychecks are... i have an idea and thats about all..

and it sucks even more than this is my last week with one of my cls and possibly moving cls and losing the other one to new ones and its hard and it is a big mess..so i will have to figure it all out...im really sad that im losing my evening kid..ill miss him alot..

so yesterday was a pain..for the most parrt...i really have forgotten what it means to stay home from fri to sunday with no break or getting away..its been so long since ive had to do it that it really was more depressing than usual..i can not have mommy in my car and drive..it drives me insane..and she comments on my driving and reminds when to slow down or watch out or she grabs the dashboard when im slowing down or something like shes s cared..and it makes me want to scream..i havent even h ad my license for a full two years yet..it feels like ive had it forever but i actually counted it up some day last week and it will be two years in aug...and i would say i drive ok but mommy would swear im the worst driver ever..and then doesnt sy a word abobut her driving..and just being in the car while mommy is driving and talking on the phone at the same time is enough to make me want to walk for the rest of my life..she doesnt pay attention at all and i do wonder how she hasnt been in an accident yet..but just constantly telling me what to do or what to wear or something..we went to a dance recital yesterday and stayed all day and as soon as i came downstairs she had something to say about my shoes and advised me to go and change them..and i wouldnt because i wanted to wear sneakers not flip flops ..but it was a big deal to her..i get sick of being called mean and selfish..sometimes i find it hard to believe that i would be the meanest person ever.sometimes i dont .. its just upsetting i guess..but the recital was long and not that good at all..ive danced for a long time and what i saw yesterday was rather disappointing technique wise for the most part..but watching i did realize again that i missed it just a bit..it was cool seeing some of the ppl we had danced with at the old studio who had now grown up..but some of the dances were just a bit painful to watch!! but the little kids were cute as always..

and now its back to work and the usual work week most likely..training thingy tomorrow..and then just the usual stuff